Saturday, January 21, 2012


I’m sorry.  I just can’t do it.  I don’t feel that it is right. I cannot do with a clear conscience.  Thank you for the help and work on my behalf in the past but it will not continue. 

Friday the 13th of January was a long day that started with a 2am bus ride to Maxixe to update my passport.  A few months earlier I had trusted my passport to- let’s just call him Pete with hopes of getting a longer, 6 month visa.  This visit would give me another 30 days; but then next time, if all the paper work (like a new police clearance from the States and other Mozambican stuff) was in order I could get the coveted 6 month visa.  Just think of it, going 6 full months without worrying about getting your passport stamped or leaving the country.  Its one of those things you never think about in your home country, but here it’s a constant stressor/annoyance/ money vacuum/necessary evil.  Living here illegally even seems appealing sometimes…but things like the Holy Spirit and the granddaddy of all fines when I’d try to leave the country deter me.

 Pete works for a lodge and he frequents Maxixe where he updates the passports of many foreigners who work at the lodge.  I went with him in order to better understand all that is required for the 6 month visa.  We arrived in Maxixe before 6am, and nothing was open ‘til 7am when we had breakfast.  After that we took a ferry to Inhambane, where the Department of Labor is.  They were in a meeting and couldn’t sign the paper so we wondered around town for a while…I was so excited to find postcards and didn’t really realize they were over $1 each until I counted how much money I had spent after we left the store.  An hour later we returned to the Dept. of Labor and they were still in this long meeting.  So we just waited at this cafĂ© and about one hour later Pete went alone to the Department of Labor and returned with the necessary signatures.  As we’re walking toward the ferry he informs me that he paid them 200 meticais for the signatures...and they didn’t want to accept the money in my presence.   Take ferry back to Maxixe.  Next stop: Immigration.  While I am filling out forms Pete briefly disappears.  Afterwards we have a lunch of champions: soft serve ice cream which I was very excited about because you don’t get it in Vilanculos.  Walking to the taxi station, he casually informs me that he arranged ice cream and cokes for the immigration workers…as well as padding their pockets too.  “You can’t look at it like a bribe, it’s just being generous and opening up our hands to them…  If you want them to be nice to you, you need to give them a motive,” he explained.

Efficiency is paramount in the USA.  I never realized how valued efficiency is the States until I moved to a place where it does not exist (unless there’s a bribe).  It’s an unspoken expectation of how America operates.  Its part of good service and it is expected as a normative standard of any operating company, business, restaurant, organization, school, etc.  I don’t think there’s any section of American society that does not carry with it some sense the importance of efficiency.  
Corruption is to Mozambique what efficiency is to America.  It is the unspoken expectation of operation.  I think every area of society is affected by corruption from schools to most government offices.  One friend of mine said his brother, a high school biology teacher, was finally coming to his senses because he had decided to accept bribes.  Bribing is so common within the government that it’s extremely difficult to get anything done without bribes.  They will purposefully delay the process in hopes of getting a bribe.  There simply isn’t a standard of efficiency or accountability here.  It’s just considered normal, and how you get things done.  
So when I found out that Pete bribed people I was saddened, but not surprised.

As we were riding home in the chapa I was super convicted by the Holy Spirit.  I had sinned.  By partnering with Pete I was bribing these people.  And I’m not working for the lodge in any capacity…which was necessary to say in order to get a 6 month visa.   How could I possibly say bribes and corruption are bad and should be avoided if that’s exactly what I was doing?  Am I not contributing to the hypocrisy that turns so many away from the church?   I had been so eager to get a 6 month visa that surely the ends justified the means.  With the Holy Spirit so clearly telling this is wrong…Proverbs about bribes coming to mind and other Scriptures that talk about submitting to government rather than trying to manipulate it and find loopholes, I knew I could not go through with pursuing a 6 month visa or anything else with Pete.  So I told Pete, I’m sorry.  I just can’t do it.  I don’t feel that it is right. I cannot do with a clear conscience.  Thank you for the help and work on my behalf in the past but it will not continue.    In that moment that the Spirit also convicted him evidenced by the sudden and obvious change of his countenance.  He also knows it’s not right.  

So I will be traveling more to be here legally.  This includes going to South Africa every 2 or 3 months for a new tourist visa and more travel to Maputo as well.  This will take at least a few days every month but I trust God to take care of me and provide.  It was refreshing for me to go to South Africa in October, and I trust that God knows what He is doing.  It’s also a financial concern but I know He takes care of me. My heart trusts Him.

 Not until Jesus for Africa is officially registered in Mozambique can I get a longer visa.   Most of the paperwork still needs to be collected, fees paid, and because we won’t use bribes…it will take a while. 

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

What happened to December?

What happened to December?
Well I don’t really have any excuse for not having a blog up in December…other than perhaps not having anything note worthy or seemingly noteworthy to say. 

I can hardly believe its already 2012. 

To sum up my holiday season I would say it’s the most uneventful holiday season I’ve had in years…which was so nice in some ways because it has given me the opportunity to stop and rest and  focus on the Lord in a way that I know would not be possible if I was in the USA.   Although I have missed family and friends I don’t regret for a second staying here…as that is what I sensed the Lord’s hand in and now I just see how I could be quiet long enough to listen to Him whisper. 

We had our Christmas Day church service…it was fairly small but very intimate, as we definitely sensed the presence of the Almighty that morning.  As Pastor Jaco said “I’d rather have a few people here who genuinely want to be here than a church full of half-hearted people.

One of the biggest things I’m trusting God for is a new place to stay.  I have lived in a trailer on the Rudolph’s property since July and I am ready for a place of my own.  So now I am looking for a new place which is challenging.  Vilanculos is a tourist area and so prices are actually higher here than other places in Mozambique.  I am looking for a place to stay in town with a bedroom, bathroom and kitchen for 3000mets or about $100 per month. Please pray for the Lord’s will and guidance in this.

Since the last few weeks have been a time of rest and seeking the Lord (therefore learning) and I want to share what I’ve learned.
One of the things I’ve done during my time of rest was read The Shack (again) by William Young.   Here are some of my favorite quotes…good food for thought.  In most of them God is the speaker.

There are times when you choose to believe something that would normally be considered absolutely irrational.  It doesn’t mean that it is actually irrational, but surely it is not ration.  Perhaps there is a suprarationality: reason beyond normal definitions of fact or data-based logic; something that only makes sense if you can see a bigger picture of reality.  Maybe that is where faith fits in.

Humans are not defined by their limitations, but by the intentions that I have for them; not by what they seem to be, but by everything it means to be created in My image.

The real underlying flaw in your life, Mack, is that you don’t think that I am good.  If you knew I was good and that everything-the means, the ends, and all the processes of individual lives-is all covered by my goodness, then while you might not always understand what I am doing, you would trust Me. But you don’t.

Ask any person who has a passion to explore and discover and create.  The choice to hide so many wonders from you is an act of love that is a gift inside the process of life.

It is wild and beautiful and perfectly in process.  To you it seems like a mess, but to me, I see a perfect pattern emerging and growing and alive-a living fractal.

My friend Sammy came to visit from South Africa.  It was nice to have him visit and somehow just telling him about what I’m doing here made me realize how much I love God. Typically I will ask God to remind me of His love for me but this time I asked Him to remind me how I love Him…and its been really special.

I’ve learned that…God doesn’t change…He’s always liked surprises and being unpredictable.

If there’s one word to mediate on and live by for 2012 its FAITH.   Lord has challenged me to live by faith…not by sight or my own understanding.  God loves faith.

I have 2 new (to me, anyway) favorite worship songs by Hillsong: “Open up the Heavens” and “All Day”.   “Open up the heavens and let your glory fall….open up our hearts and we will know You, we will know You”

And some Scriptures:
A wise woman builds her house, but a foolish woman tears it down with her own hands.  Proverbs 14:1

Unless the Lord builds a house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain.  In vain you rise early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat-for he grants sleep to those he loves. Psalm 127:1-2.

Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock.  The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock.  But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand.  The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against the house, and it fell with a great crash. Matthew 7: 24-27